Mannerism

Called To Freedom

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Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. (2 Cor 3:17 ESV)

After a period of time in which I was a full-time caregiver, I now find myself experiencing a new found freedom. New found in that I’ve never experienced freedom in this manner. It feels completely different than anything else I’ve ever felt before. As is often the case, it appears that I’ve been changed by the season that’s just passed, and that I’ve grown to see things in a new light.

My time of serving was wonderfully fulfilling. It brought me a deeper understanding of myself.

I learned things about myself that were gratifying, and also at times disappointing.

You see we have the freedom to learn from what we live. We can learn from our successes, and we can also learn from our failures. It’s the essence of our journey. We wake as one person, and through the Spirit’s guidance, we can end the day as another.

And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. (John 8:32 ESV)

But now I find myself in new territory. I’m walking on ground that I’ve never walked on before. I’m in a place that I never knew existed. I’m living a freedom that as of a month ago was unimaginable.

The truth is my values have changed and I’m seeing the world differently.

I’m now facing each new day with a different set of possibilities. I’m daring to imagine things I never did before. I’m experiencing a rush of exciting thoughts and ideas and the joy is overwhelming.

For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another. (Gal 5:13 ESV)

And so I’m writing like I haven’t done before. I’m writing with a renewed purpose. I’m writing with the full intention of sharing what I’ve gone through, and how I’ve been changed by it. I’m writing out of a sense of servanthood, out of a love for my brothers and sisters in that my journey may enlighten just one person, that it may lead someone to the truth, that it may lead them to the freedom from whence they’ve been called…. for we’ve all been called to freedom.

Pray on,

Eddy.

 

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Mannerism

Replenished

Enlight253“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30 ESV)

During my father’s recent home hospice journey, I, the sole caregiver, found myself driven to my breaking point. Push anything to its limits, and it will break down. My ’69 Volkswagen Beetle will attest to that. Proud as she was, there was a limit to what she could withstand, and over time she too fell to the demands that were put on her.

Sleep deprived, I found myself wandering away from some of my basic  daily necessities. I know some who will find this unbelievable, but days passed without me picking up a guitar… or writing,,, or even reading. Irritable, cranky, and certainly tired were all honest descriptive words that could have been attached to my behavior and or mood. Think twenty-eight days with only intermittent sleep.

Serving wasn’t the issue, but seeing clearly was. In my attempt to be all things at all times to my father, I neglected my own health and well being.

“Six days you shall work, but on the seventhly you shall rest.” (Exodus 34:21 ESV)

So as God would have it, eighteen hours before his last breath, I woke from an hour nap to find myself broken health wise. I was unable to think clearly, my throat was sore, and my body was an aching mess.

Now tired I could do, but broken I couldn’t.

Yes, God found a way to school me even in my father’s last waking hours.

Guilty I am for not leaning enough on Him; guilty I am of not heeding His words concerning rest, and guilty I am of not trusting in His love.

“For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.” (Jeremiah31:25 ESV)

I went to bed the night after his passing to rest. I went to bed repeating God’s words of wisdom. I went to bed to satisfy my weary soul, and to be replenished.

Pray on,

Eddy

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